I would say I was loosing my mind. There is this crazy excitement in my spirit that I cannot contain. For the past four months I have been grieving and mourning my divorce. As sick and unbelievably painful that experience was, I have never, not even once, in any tiny winy manner, been afraid, desperate or even anxious about anything. I was hurting, and deeply for that matter, yet thanks to my faith, not once did I ever feel alone.
Yet in my anger I did subconsciously rebel though, I rebelled against everything I hold dear, my faith, my spiritual parents but mostly against myself. I think I subconsciously blamed myself for enduring the abuse for as long as I had. I blamed myself for caring more for other people than I did myself and as a result I shut down and have been on auto pilot mode ever since, until this week!
I am back, the excellent, zealous, careful planner and make things happen Zanele I know myself to be just woke up from her slumber. Mourning period over, no more taking it a day at a time, am taking my life back and am ready to live my best life ever and I'm soo excited its ridiculous, seriously if I didn't know better I would really think something was wrong with me, but to the contrary something is very right with me.....and its about time!!!
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I believe you are fine there are things that are hard to be believe but the great thing we should know is never to stop trust and believing in God. He knows what is best for His children and He does everything for those He truly love.
Happy to have you back too and i amloving the attitude you have towards all of these. God loves you and you just have to keep up the faith in Him and you will never be sorry.
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