Women's Day Love from Zee

They say: Woman, learn to accept yourself coz there will always be someone prettier than you

I say: Pretty by whose standards? Define pretty….I’m a spiritual being destined for eternity, yr boxes will not contain or define me.

They say: Woman, you can be anything you want to be

I say: Who said I need your permission? I am everything I want to be, saying I can means there’s room for failure, how do I fail at being what I AM?

They say: Woman, you can do everything a man can do and do it better

I say: Yeah right, thank you but no thanks I’m comfortable being a woman and am not here to compete with any man

They say: Woman, you can never be in leadership coz you are very emotional

I say: Do not project your insecurities on me

They say: Woman, you should not in any way admit that you’re a sexual being or have an opinion as far as yours sexuality is concerned

I say: Again, do not project your insecurities on me, or are you afraid if I did speak about my sexuality it will expose your selfishness n short comings?

They say: Woman, you need a man to survive in this world

I say: As much as I would love to share my world with a man, he is not my world, as long as I have my faith and mind I will survive this world just fine.

P.S.

From Zee to you my darling women….never forget that you are more than your looks, education and circumstances. Do not fall victim or prisoner of other people’s opinion of what acceptable and grand is. You ARE all you wanna be as long as you trust n practice your faith and apply your mind and free yourself from your own limitations. This world can only see you thru your own eyes. Do not strive for perfection, but be sincere with yourself in your own dealings. Know that this world will always be harsh simply coz you are a woman and it perceives you as weak and inferior. Whatever you do, never write yourself off….if you are not happy with anything you have done, accept that, learn your lesson and do better next time…..stay teachable always. Engrave this in your heart: CREATION was not complete without YOU!!!!

Stay in your lane...

Often a time, when we as humans are faced with situations that seem to challenge us, we have the tendency to react defensively. Others go the venomous, malicious, degrading, name calling, judgmental and talk down at route, while others go the pity me, why me, victim mentality route, while others take the most pretentious self elevating, I don’t care what you think of me route, while very few take the most simple, yet effective think before you act/speak route.

 Let me get straight to the point: nothing in this world is permanent. Today’s weakling can be tomorrow’s life changing hero, whilst today’s hero can be tomorrow’s disgrace. The power is in our minds. Before you react to your challenges think about what that challenge is bringing into your life. The easier it is for you to take offense is directly related to how weak and underfed yr mind is. Do yourself a favor and be your best friend always. Instead of worrying about other people’s opinion of you, worry about the fact that their opinion bothers you that much.

 Take your power back; know that people’s reactions to you are nothing but feedback. Use that feedback to better yourself and your stance in this world. It’s not meant to define you but to refine you. It is never about whether the feedback is true or not, but about what it is meant to teach you about you. You are an eternal being; refuse to live for today when you are destined for forever. Look inside you and be real about you see. Have the courage to ask what are you doing to make this world’s reaction to you better or worse, change what is necessary and life goes on. Stay teachable, and do not let this world dictate your worth and hold you captive to your past and bad decisions.

 Just as the season’s change, the course of your life can too. People can write you off but do not ever write yourself off. If you choose life and start applying your mind accordingly, life will choose you right back. Stay in your lane and concern yourself about the only person you have complete power over and that person is YOU. Remember, we are the world. It is not on the outside but inside each of us, if we change n better ourselves, we change and better the world…..it is never too late!!!

 ZeeK Love...

Where there's a promise, there's intent..

Why is sperm called seed? Self explanatory u might say right...but how readily do we realize the powerful lessons hidden in the nature around us?



Think with me therefore...what really is a seed? In my words a seed is a promise....one that we bury in the ground with the intention to receive a return. The beauty of it all being its ability to multiply and give us more than we actually planted. My dad planted his seed on my mom’s womb and I was born and I was born with a womb that can receive seed and give birth as many times as I want. I was born one but can die multiplied if u get my drift.



Now the reality of this life is things do not always go as planned. Not often do we reap what we sow...at times seeds can be planted on infertile soil, can be eroded by floods but doesn’t make them any less of a promise for multiplication. However, a seed planted on fertile soil, n sprouts to life is a beginning of a journey to perfection. It never sprouts complete but it undergoes different stages until it can be considered full grown n ready to give its own fruit.



You and I were one of the promises that our father planted on our mother’s womb. So here is my point...where there is promise, there is intent to keep it. Regardless of what cards life has dealt you...only you know what stands between you and a complete you, yet whatever it is...it doesn’t change the facts. The fact is you are here now, a promise realized and the intent is for you to realize your great potential.



No matter how many times you have been knocked down and disappointed do not give up, you made it this far, yes perhaps bruised and wounded but who cares, you are still here and you are here to multiply. My pastor said something that blew my mind this past weekend, he said “ Delay is not denial”...and just like you I was uhm...dude, I’ve heard that many times...blah, blah, blah...until he compared that statement to the story of the Lord Jesus 1st miracle of changing water to wine.



When the wine finished at that wedding, Mary came to her son, obviously coz she knew he was a special person who could actually do something about that matter, yet her son answers harshly and claims his hour has not come yet. She goes away disappointed maybe but still goes to the workers and says do whatever he tells u...we all know what happened thereafter, water was changed to wine...not just any wine but the best wine of the day.Right there it all made sense to me...Mary knew the promise she received in her son...even though he had seem to delay in reacting but he had not really denied. And when he finally did react they received the best wine. I am a seed, a promise that’s waiting to be realized to its fullness. Regardless of any obstacle, different up and downs, past victories or defeats, I am a promise and there’s intent to realize me until I give birth to other seeds and circle continues.



I therefore refuse to be a living corpse. I choose to be like Mary n “do whatever he tells u do” per say. Whatever I have to do to better my life I will do. I will take a very close interest in my own life as I do the lives of those I celebrate. From this point on, it matters what choices I’m making, what people I call friends, what influences I allow in my life. I am a seed realized...and the best is yet to come. Just as the wine the Lord Jesus gave was the best....my life from now on will be the best ever, simply because I know better. I have my old life to compare to and create something much better.



You are as much a promise a I am...and the intent is just the same...but unless you to do what you have to do, you run a big risk of being either miscarried or worse be born handicapped and stand no chance of ever being complete or worst come n go and be forgotten and that’s a crying shame.....



ZeeK love...

My thoughts for you in the New Year..

Dear friends,

It is my prayer that the coming year present you with endless opportunities to grow, establish and consolidated every aspect of your life. That you get to realize your full potential as a spiritual being and your discernment increased and purified that you are not only able to be aware of all that is beautiful and rewarding around you, but that you will be even more aware of the evils in you and around you that will constantly be trying to distract you throughout the year.

That you will see results from all the good seeds you planted this year and be granted the wisdom to learn every necessary lesson from all the bad decisions you made in this passing year, so you won’t have to deal with such ever again. I pray that God may be gracious to us all and draw us near to Him, so we can access His strength and power in times when ours are not enough to pull us through the roughness of this world.

Love more, laugh louder and more often, give more of you to those in need….invest more in your spirit, develop your identity, grow a stronger backbone, and stand up for yourself without fear, never be intimidated by anyone or anything, stand for what you believe in…enrich your mind, read more, be more vigilant of parasites and users, protect yourself always, be more of a leader and a trendsetter than just a follower or a groupie…rid your heart of all conceit, hate, and grudges…. they are all unnecessary baggage that will only make your journey heavier. Find true love, be sincere and pure in your actions that you become someone worthy of that true love and appreciation.

To those I had the pleasure of meeting and forming close relations with, thank you for opening your lives to me and can only hope that we will grow together next year. I look forward to more weddings, house warming parties, announcements of new business conquests or ventures, brand forming and less baby showers for single parents, jealousy, strife and more especially much less funerals of young people, alcohol and drug abuse.

This lady here has got nothing but craZEE for y’all and will be routing for your success throughout the coming year.


Much love,
Lady ZeeK

Never been sure....continues

How is it possible? As hard as it is to believe I have been betrayed, by my own family, the people I have looked up to for years, whose teachings have shaped my character and inspired me to be the best I can be, yet here we are today, unspoken enemies…



Not until my God given sista Charmaine decided I should leave Johannesburg for a few days and join her in Durban did it dawn on me, just how I was letting myself down and believing the lie again. Charmaine, Charmaine, Charmaine… the love of my life, my sista from another mother, a chapter on her own, I tell you. Walk with me and I will tell you more about her later. As I was saying, it was not until she dragged me to Durban and surrounded me with our friends that love me, her family showering me with tons of love and crazy attention, even giving me my 1st EID experience with her 2nd family, the Dawood’s in Chatsworth, did it occur to me….I have been here before, this dark painful place of confusion was familiar yet it had lost its sting, these were nothing but kicks of a dying horse, as clear as daylight it dawn on me once more, my circumstances didn’t define me, they never did, n they never will…period!



Despite all the plotting and devious dealings of the other people around me I am still here. My mind forced me to realize that, I can make a choice to curl myself up in the corner, hide my pretty face, and die as others wished or I can listen to my mind and the brilliant ideas that are flooding my head everyday and make something of my life for me. I am not here to impress anyone but me, I am not here to be great so I can brag to anyone or to prove anything to anyone but to me.



So what’s your freaking point Zee…maybe you ask? It’s clear…for every action there is a re-action, it is the law of nature. With every passing day we die, yes we were born to live and live gloriously for that matter, yet we die with each passing second. It’s a spiritual conflict beyond our comprehension, but one thing is for sure, if you was brave enough to be born, you are brave enough to survive anything this world can throw at you…all you have to do is…APPLY YOUR MIND…you are STILL here, regardless of it all.



No matter if your setbacks were self-inflicted or if they were carefully orchestrated by others, they should not define you…you are STILL here, whether for a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade or a freaking millennium, you are STILL here, make yourself count to yourself and nobody else…your life is within you and not in anything or anyone around you, trust me the breath in your nostrils is the Almighty’s and the faith in your heart is a piece of God in you, do not believe the lie…you are not dead yet…you are STILL here, and anything is possible.



Maybe you ask yourself, why should I listen to you, what do you know or better yet who do you think you are to lecture me…this is why I hope you will listen to me, the malicious job loss drama I began this story with, is actually the closing scene of this chapter of my life. A life that began 18yrs ago, a sequence of highest highs and deepest lows, indescribable joy and also unbelievable heart wrenching sadness at times. Are you still not sure? Why don’t I just paint the picture for you and you can draw your own conclusions…



18 years ago I was this young, naïve but extremely curious cute gal….(to be continued)



ZeeK Love

Never been any sure…

…than I am ryt now of my purpose in this world. If there has been anything I’m sure of, was that I was here for reason, come on, all this fabulosity and intelligence just for show? No way, however this past few weeks made it even clearer. Funny enuf that the trigger had to be a malicious attack from people I have trusted with my life for years, crazy huh? Trust me you have absolutely no idea how much, people I am ready to take a bullet for anytime turned out to be the ones pointing the gun at me.….but as I have always said life gets much easier when you are a thinker, coz trust me that grey mass between your ears is more powerful than any weapon of mass destruction if u nurture it well…

About a month ago I lost my job, and all of sudden with no warning, my heart was at the same confused spot I was at a year ago when I got divorced. Granted the people involved in the unbelievable malicious drama of my job loss were the same that were at the centre of the hell I went thru as a result of choosing life and deciding to walk out of a relationship that was draining life out of me with each passing second and they made it their personal mission to make my life harder than it should have been, so I guess it makes sense why all those feelings of hopelessness came flooding back.

Hear I was again in tears all night, some days wouldn’t even eat or wake up from my sofa which had become my new bed and my cave where I hid my face and feelings to my roommate who has become more of a younger sister to me. All the self-pity and rage came flooding back followed by periodic outbursts of rants directed at God for allowing this happen to me over and over again. Am sure as much as it hurt my Father deeply to see me in such pain, he must have also rolled on the floor cracking Himself up at some of my utterances, He is my creator, He knows 1sthand how raw and blunt I can get, believe me…

Ok work with me here, how in God’s wonderful earth am I to survive such crazy accusations and systematic maneuvering orchestrated from the top of the company hierarchy? The past year since my divorce has been an extremely interesting one I tell you. After separation in June last year, I thought hard about staying on at the same company that ex-hubby was involved with, and I was convinced that I was up to the task, anyway my involvement with the company was long before I met him so my loyalty to the company took precedence...it did ryt? Little did I know that those I was loyal to with my life were plotting how to be rid of me with every waking sec of their lives...

Wait at min, how could that be, this is my family, people I have worked side by side with for over 15yrs, have endured massive persecution with, my dedication never shaken regardless the dire n sometimes extremely conditions I was deployed at in different countries around the continent of Africa, their enemies instantly became my enemies at any given time...how could they be holding a gun to my head now?.....(to be continued)

ZeeK love

Impossible task : Tryna make a summer out of a winter

Been pondering this morning on one of the lessons I learnt from one of my role models, motivational speaker Dumisani Kunene, that no winter lasts forever and no summer misses its turn. A true lesson from nature...it is the order of things that is the same for all continents. The difference could be the time and duration that each continent will be subject to such changes but the fact remains all will experience the change of seasons as prescribed by nature and the Almighty.

I guess the key to his teaching for me is having the ability to discern each season in our lives. Many times we find people swimming against wild currents and fighting loosing battles in different aspects of their lives, simple because they have not been able to perceive the season they are currently experiencing in their lives. Nothing is as impossible as tryna make a summer out of a winter. It cannot be done, no amount of will power or positive thinking can change a winter to summer.

It is a blessing in everyone's life to have an impeccable discerning spirit. We are not meant to win every battle in life or to even show up for every battle we are invited to. Sometimes all we need is to adjust our selves, accept the season we are going through so we can dress accordingly so to speak, with certainty in our hearts that this too shall pass, nature around us teaches us that no season is permanent, but if we master this season, we wud have gained the intelligence to tackle the same season when it comes our way again...and come it will, coz so is nature..

Only the ones blessed with that spirit of discernment will even get what I'm saying for what it is...as for the rest 'twill be nothing short of more blah, blah, blah


Zeek Love...

Social network's unconditional love...

Gotta say there is no loving, faithful, ever supporting and truly dedicated friends as the ones we find on social networks....certainly none, period! Once people fall in love with you here, they are on your corner for as long as you will let them. They fight your battles, attacking whoever comes against you, even watch out for your love life with unbelievable zeal, let some random chick/dude write something mushy on your partner's profile, damn, your network friends will immediately be up in arms, to the point of hijacking that post with calculated sarcasm...regardless of whether y'all are even in the same continent or not; its truly fascinating to watch and be part of.

People are drawn to each other in an amazing way. Some friendships graduate from the net to becoming real friendships, getting even closer than blood family members just from the love born in these networks. These people only see the good in their friends, wish them the best always, believe the best for them...more like the ever present wind beneath the friend's wings. Now the disadvantage with that is that the 'friends' receiving the love can be deceived by it at times, big time.

Truth is, even the most unkind, rude, self centred, greedy, or obnoxious person on earth also has friends or groupies in these networks, who only know him from what he/she says in their chats or his/her statuses. He/She, in real life, is probably that sister/brother that is constantly embarrassing her/his immediate family, always making choices and decision that bring shame and isolation, nothing he/she does really succeeds...he/she has no job or is the worst employee ever, fails dismally in school, can't make any relationship work coz he/she is unreliable and dodgy...is a pathological liar, gossiper and slanderer. Even his/her network friends would be shocked at what he/she says about them behind their backs when inboxing with the other 'network' friends.

But let the very person update a status that says she/he is heartbroken or that they have 'haters' who are trying to destroy her/his life or any of that victim mentality sad stuff, the ever loving friends are there, ready to motivate, console, urge on and even take sides. Our friends in these networks never want any facts, they only care about our well being and will go to whatever length to make sure we are fine, others will immediately call, email, others even come over to make sure you are fine...yes there are such good people still in this rotting earth...believe me...however my point is, when you receive such love and you know very well that you do not deserve it, why continue lie to yourself???

I strongly believe that truly blessed is a person who can look themselves in the mirror and be real about what they see. It does not make any difference in anyone's life to lap up the adoration and the praises that you receive from people who are not leaving your life. At the end of the day, your life is yours to live and enjoy. You alone will enjoy the benefits of your sincerity and hard work. People can bend over backwards to try and make you feel good but if your problem is your rotten self, all their efforts are in vain. Your happiness is fake...its nothing but words until you make the choice to be real about who and what you are.

People stay in these networks 24/7 simply coz they love the roles they are acting online, but when they log off it's back to the ugly reality, the reality that no matter how much they try to escape, they can't, no one can ever run from themselves...my two cents worth of advise....if you cannot live with you, your life is nothing but an unfortunate waste.....do yourself a favour...and be real with your self, because those who really matter will love you regardless.

ZeeK Love...

A very good morning to you...

Mornings will always come...be it Mon or Fri am...we can't wish them away...instead of the blah, blah, blah about how we don't like mornings...lets be grateful that we have a new day 2 learn new things, start new projects, finish what we started...rectify our mistakes, make amends, love, laugh, excel in our different fields, purposely turn a blind eye 2 the insignificant...its possible trust me...its a matter of decision!

I think we waste too much time and energy on things we do not have control over, then what we really have control over. Don't hear me wrong, I hate waking up especially in this crazy Jhb winter but its not as if I have a choice now do I? This might seem like a trivial point to make to some of you, but how many lost big opportunities today simple because they are not 'morning people'.

How many lost out on a chance of walking a loved one to a bus stop or taxi rank just for love sake, lost out on blessing their kids before they go to school, motivating them to go out and take over the world, one subject at a time, lost out on a chance to showcase their gift or talent coz they postponed that project for later in the day, lost out on a chance to say I love you or I am sorry to a family member or loved one after going to bed last night in horrible terms.

A friend of mine's morning just got disturbed because he received news that a family member passed on, while you are busy moaning about how blue this morning is...do take the time to acknowledge that the sky is just as beautifully blue, be thankful and grateful of what you have and those you have been given while you still have them and they still got you...

ZeeK Love

Choice is ours...always!!

Live life with no expectations and you will have no disappointments....if u shud expect anything...expect from yrself....coz the deal is never the ish that happens to you but how you react to it....whether yr spirit rises or falls is your call, it has absolutely nothing to do with your circumstances. Am I saying circumstances don't hurt or dis-illusion? Hell no...coz they do ...some hurt deeper than others. However if we make a conscious choice to be the captain of our own ship, to bear in mind always that nothing in this world is permanent, not even the breath in our nostrils, then we are giving ourselves a survival chance.

Again I will say...life is always much easier when we think, when we apply our God given superiority in this world, our MIND. Logic will teach you that the direction always depends with the driver and never the passengers or even the road traveled. If you do not like the road you travelling at, you change it...its yr decision, you are the driver....its yr call and nobody else's....




ZeeK love...

A word of advise to my fellow straight talkers...

I have to say very few things are more irritating than an arrogant person who has no regard for other people's feelings...who think that just because they have an opinion about something, they are obligated to voice it or the earth will stop rotating if they don't.

Know what fellow earth citizens...if you wanna get through to anyone, with the hope of living a lasting, necessary and worthy impression, timing is everything. Knowing when to speak and when to shut yr trap is not even wisdom in my opinion but a gift, that many of us were never blessed with. Truth is...as much as you have the right to freedom of speech, people around you have the right to be respected.

The reason most people call themselves 'straight talkers', is just mere self assurance since they know they hurt people with their stupidity, but wud rather turn the blind eye and pretend to stand by their many times unnecessary and unworthy opinion, only to make themselves feel better...

ZeeK love..

Clever people are good at solving a crisis but wise people know how to avoid the crisis altogether....

Inspiration is good, but its not everything...

Truth be told, we are emotional beings, and our emotions are worse than a roller coaster,which makes it impossible for us to wake up everyday feeling all psyched and ready to rumble. Not everyday you will feel like doing the things you know you NEED to do to reach your goals. Thats where a strong mind takes over....how much does it mean to you to reach your targets and realize your dreams? You answer that, you will start applying yourself even when you just wanna curl up in bed and snooze the whole day.

Again I say our mind is our superiority, when we use it and stretch it more often, the better our lives become. Am sure u will then agree that it is important therefore to watch what we feed our minds....what or who influences our thought process is vital to our success. What you know will always outweigh what you feel at any given time, but for that to happen you need to have a strong and steadfast mind...one that is rooted in strong self conviction and belief....guess the question then wud be...how rooted is your thinking...do you trust your self to make firm decisions and stick with them?,....don't answer me...look in the mirror and tell him/her!!

ZeeK love...

And we call ourselves Christians...

Allow me to address my fellow believers this morning, myself included. We call ourselves Christians because we claim to believe in Christ from whom our identity is supposed to originate, our so called Lord and Saviour,yet when push comes to shove, we are our own lords...our will and our purpose is what prevails, until shit around us and in our lives, hits the fan so fast that our heads are spinning and, oh, then we remember that there is a 'God' who was suppose to have our back and then we take him to task for not being there for us when we needed Him...

Let me tell you what that actually means, its like a child who comes out with a window from her dad's home and goes gallivanting with friends and goes to wherever her hearts desires, even if that child was chased out of her father's house, if she/he was raised ryt, knows better than to go gallivanting...next she/he is kidnapped, raped and injured...even if she/he was the child of President of Zuma, his power doesn't mean zilch if she is where she wasn't supposed to be...if he never gave her permission to be there, he is not responsible for her safety, let alone if he warned her in advance about such behavior....get my drift?

The most interesting thing about us 'Christians" is how we constantly stand in judgement of our fellow Christians, the most holy in their own eyes, look down on the apparently 'fallen in the faith' and wont even lift a finger to get them to come back to the Kingdom...u fall...u are dead to them...a plague to be avoided at all cost, and the 'backsliden' who want to blame their turning their back on God on the bad treatment they received from others...those just really rub me the wrong the way...i tell you.

As a member of the Universal Church for the past 18 yrs, am surrounded by a number of such, constantly bickering about how they were deceived into doing A and B...how they were betrayed by the 'Church', how they were duped into doing blah, blah and blah? My question to you is...aren't you supposed to be Bible believing Christians? Isn't He the same who doesn't sleep or slumber...who knows the motives behind the thoughts of each and every man? Or you tryna tell me that He doesn't have the power to defend you from your so called 'oppressors'....gimme a break, a big one nogal!!

Let me be honest with you, most of us who call ourselves Christians have no intention of being true to our faith, we want it to fit itself in our lives, which will never work...tell me where are the people you claim ruined yr life by lying to you in the name of God, when we drink ourselves to a stupor and sleep around as if theres no tomorrow...the married constantly cheating on their spouses and some of us busy making money thru lies and illegal deals.

We lie, cheat, steal, gossip, slander and deceive like the world is coming to an end and wonder why we are constantly bitter and have little if any success in anything we do.We busy watching and dissecting the lives of others, sometimes even planting doubt in the hearts of those who are still in the faith simple because we do not have the courage to look at our downfall and be real about who we are, repent and give ourselves a fighting chance. And we blame them for treating us as if we are dead to them?

You believe people, your church and Christianity has changed, that people are making a name for themselves and use others to get what they want...let God deal with such...because He hasn't changed, but your potion is to honor the sacrifice of the Lord Jesus Christ, the only one who gave His life to save you from eternal damnation and before whom you will stand to give account for your deeds...you claim people deceive others and make themselves rich in the name of God....what are you doing then to honor the very Name...wish I cud say we are doing nothing, but that will be a lie....coz we are doing something, just it is the opposite, we are dragging it in the mud...other people's shortcomings are not your passport to sin....there I said it...sue me!!!

ZeeK love...

If I didn't know better...

I would say I was loosing my mind. There is this crazy excitement in my spirit that I cannot contain. For the past four months I have been grieving and mourning my divorce. As sick and unbelievably painful that experience was, I have never, not even once, in any tiny winy manner, been afraid, desperate or even anxious about anything. I was hurting, and deeply for that matter, yet thanks to my faith, not once did I ever feel alone.

Yet in my anger I did subconsciously rebel though, I rebelled against everything I hold dear, my faith, my spiritual parents but mostly against myself. I think I subconsciously blamed myself for enduring the abuse for as long as I had. I blamed myself for caring more for other people than I did myself and as a result I shut down and have been on auto pilot mode ever since, until this week!

I am back, the excellent, zealous, careful planner and make things happen Zanele I know myself to be just woke up from her slumber. Mourning period over, no more taking it a day at a time, am taking my life back and am ready to live my best life ever and I'm soo excited its ridiculous, seriously if I didn't know better I would really think something was wrong with me, but to the contrary something is very right with me.....and its about time!!!

Walking through the shadow of death..

Remember the prayer of serenity, Lord help me change the things that I can and help me accept the things I cannot change?

I'm convinced that right there is the recipe to overcome any spiritual hardship or challenge in life. There are things we will never understand why they happen in life.Our nature always looks for answers, for someone to blame, as if blame will change or solve anything. Many times we are very much concerned about winning the battle, when we should be focusing on the entire war.

I have realized that courage is really a difficult thing. When you step out of your comfort zone and confront that which has been holding you captive, fear will haunt you 24/7, and fight hard to confuse you and prove you wrong.It will appeal to your nature, your need to understand everything, the need to be understood, accepted and the need to belong etc. I understand today what the Bible meant by 'commit your plans to the Lord and He will make them succeed', because if He is the foundation for your decision, He will carry you through that shadow of death.

He will give you the strength to accept the things you cannot change. The ability to discern the big difference between winning the battle and winning the war. As you walk through that shadow of death, don't concern yourself about understanding it all, but concern yourself about things that will add value in your life.

Even if you were to receive all the facts and have full understanding of why that tragedy or challenge came into your life, would it change the fact it did? Would it make the pain any lesser? You know what my dear friend, it will not... one thing we have complete control over in this world is our actions and reactions. The sooner we change the things that we need to change and accept the things we cannot change, the better are our chances of winning the war against the evil that's gunning for our souls.

I guess at the shadow of death is where we prove our faith and trust in God, coz if we really trust Him, we surrender and His rod and His staff comforts us, we rest in the confidence that His will and purposes prevail always.

God is eternal

One of the very interesting promises in the Bible and one of my favorites tells us that everything in God's creation will pass away, even the heavens themselves, His Holy dwelling, they have an expiry date attached to them, one which no man can change or delay. However, God's word remains forever. I have been pondering about these words a lot this morning, and I came to the conclusion that as humans we are weak, sometimes unbelievable short sighted and very self centered.

No matter how well we calculate our actions and calculate our words to present or create a certain image that we think we help us get by in this world, we should never loose sight of the fact that God is eternal, and that this world with all its splendor will pass away. What we do today, echoes eternally, who we choose to be today determines if we will spend our days with Him in eternity.

So regardless of what and who we think of ourselves to be, of what we think we deserve in life, the bottom line is if we dropped dead today, next week, next month or years from now, our heart, our own convictions, our sincerity or lack of, is all that we will have.And that is all that will matter. My ultimate conclusion therefore is the joys or pains, the victories or failures, the desirable or the undesirables of this world all have an expiry date, except for a human's soul, and no matter how the rules of engagement change in this world, God's rules in His word remain forever, for God is eternal...period!!!

I met Zanele, and wow is she looking good...

Just as I thought life couldn't be any crueler to me. As if it was not enough that my life as I have known it for 15 years was changing right before my eyes and there was nothing I could do about it, here I am again, this very cold Tuesday afternoon, balling my eyes out because of more hurting words that I heard. I decide to have a conversation with my Father, my soul in such wrenching pain, I'm pouring it out before His throne, it feels as if my heart is going to stop.

And right there I got the idea to write another blog. I came to my page to express myself, and boom...there was me...yes AND THEN THERE WAS ME...I started reading my previous posts, wow my God is really the only God. I was reminded of who I really am, reading post by post, my best friend Zanele ministered to me with such conviction and clarity. It was like a forgotten investment, a deposit made and forgotten, and today I can withdraw, and be rich....and yes I am rich, greater is He that lives in me than the one in this world...so I march ahead in faith and with a big smile....coz nothing, absolutely nothing about me surprises Him!!!

What use is it really to know God?

Truth be told, unless we know who we are, it is absolutely of no use for us to know God….period. Everything that we learn and hear about God is nothing but mere words unless we bring it to life when it is manifested in our lives.

Believers who know who they are do not wait or beg for opportunities. They do not crumble and die under misunderstandings and injustices. They do not plead with the devil to stop interfering with their lives. They do not follow or serve God under compulsion. Most of all they never wait to receive hand outs from no man. They take God at His word and never compromise at all.

We are the key to unlock all our blessings. Our attitude, our actions of faith, our determination, our drive, and our forcefulness is all we need to see and taste that God is indeed good. Unless you really embrace who you are or who you become when you receive and accept the Lord Jesus as your Lord and Savior, it is definitely of no use for you to know God. Simply because God can and will only be manifested to this world through you, other than that He remains a beautiful story.

Right there is the greatest blessing about being born of God. He walks this earth through you, just as He said to Moses I have made you god over Pharaoh, so I dare to say if you are born of God, you are god over your life so start acting one!!!!!!

You've got this, really...trust me.

I think one of the most unfortunate things with us believers is our inability to discern life seasons. We will never be able to reach the fullness of our potential or use our faith to the maximum unless we are able to understand what season we're at.

Granted you believe in God, but how much do you believe in yourself? God is trusting in you to manifest His greatness to the world. Yes to the world, not to each other as Christians or just within the walls of our place of worship. But out there, in our families, our workplaces, yes out there in the world. God is making all these investments in us daily through His word with a high expectation that we must deliver. And most of all He lives in us through His Spirit. Yes He lives in you, you heard me well. He lives in you. Didn't the Lord Jesus say the kingdom of God is within you?

So perhaps you are currently struggling with the challenges as you build your huge life, because as a result of work and business you can't fellowship as you would like to, come on now my dear friend, trust in God's investment in you. Recognize the season, the fact that you used to go to church everyday and now you can only go some days should not be the problem if you are at war to conquer for God's glory. It's a season and it will pass. Apply yourself in faith, God is in you to help you conquer.

The church cannot be our cave where we go to hide all in the name of fellowship. We have been sent to the world to conquer for God. Come to church as much as you can but don't beat yourself up when you couldn't come a day. He is in you and you are busy looking for Him in buildings. Never forget that our enemy is cunning and he will even use your dedication to God to stop or slow you down.

The time is now to see the distinction between those who serve God and those who do not. This world needs a wake up call that the Lord is coming but those who believe in God need to manifest His power in such a way that this world takes notice. So trust me, that will never happen unless we are radical and we really trust and have confidence not just in God but in ourselves as well. It's all a matter of attitude; your spirit and your faith in God. So hear me when I say, you've got this, for real,you can really do it...believe me, He LIVES in you, what could be impossible to you, just trust His investment in you.

A friendly reminder…

Let us never forget that our mere existence in this world is a threat to our number one enemy, who hated the idea that God created us in His image. Because that meant we would be at a position higher than him, when he was used to being the most beautiful of his time. As much as we celebrate that our Lord is risen and are looking forward to conquering more for His Glory, we must never forget that our enemy is crafty. He might be powerless before our Lord but he is very shrewd and unbelievable patient.

He watches every move, listens to every word we utter, and observes every sigh, every re-action, only to create such situations that we find ourselves feeling all vulnerable and confused. And many times he will influence your life to such an extent that you make decisions that you think are for your good when they are nothing but. He made those decisions and just made you believe that you made them, when all you did was to agree with his suggestion.

Every time we need to make any decision, best we consult the best manual of life, the Bible, always remembering that narrow is the way to life and anything that comes easy or makes our sacrifice lighter is fishy, very fishy….